The End Is Near

"di tempias imbas ini, sejenak aku terhenti

terbayanglah bagaimana, pengembaraan ku bermula

ku tinggalkan segala yang ku sayang dan ku cinta

hanya untuk mencari satu identiti diri yang murni.."

One of Ramli Sarip's greatest song ---> Keliru! <--- Yup, still remember how 2008 was begin with. The petrol price was still at it highest RM1.98 per litre. Ahead of me, everything was seems too challenging. I was struggling with my 7th month's old job. And few things happened after that, the BN government lost 4 states in the last general election, and petrol price increases few times surpassing RM2 mark per litre, but no reduction in the toll charges though which really upset me. But despite the up and down, here I am, surviving ---> Thank God<---. In few more days, me, you and others will be greeting 2009. Nine (9) days to be exact! Looking back, there were plenty things had happen. Good things, bad things, sweet things and whatever we may called em.

Hmm.. lets forget bout the catastrophic sub-prime in States, and lets forget bout the major flaws in our current economic framework, and lets recap what were the other major things happened around me in 2008.

1) In January, I finally managed to convince myself to move-in to my new house! Yess!! Proud that I have my own, which I never thought of. Not so big house but I guess, to have a proper place to crash and to do stuffs without having a thought that somebody is gonna bother me, -- that is sufficient.

2) God had spoken! One of the greatest things in 2008 was you! It was started with a simple and straight-forward relationship. We became buddies. And all the messages, the thoughts, the ideas and the dreams that we went through was electric! Things that we have done, and times we have spent together were the greatest! Although the ending is quite certain, I would never erase the memories. Muchos gracias !!

3) July was the month of magic. Kaknik and Alonkk gave birth to their 3rd n 2nd child. Two beautiful baby girls, Aleefa and Adriana. Congrat to them, my both big bro inlaw, and congrat to mak and abah !!

4) October - House Warming cum Open House cum Many Small Get Together. Thanks mak, abah and families for spending their two restless days helping me with the preparation. It was like a major achievement to me.

5) Late November & early December was tiring. My bro wedding was on the 6th of December. I took a long holiday. Barely recall when was the last big event in my life, hmm.. somewhere between 2000 and 2001 I guess, so expecting that this year end event would be the climak. Alhamdullillah, everything was run smoothly. Big hands to my cousins for their help. And "Selamat Pengantin Baru" to my bro and his wife, wish you all the best!!

6) Yess !! Thanks for the 5 kilos !!

So, thats summarized all the big things. And counting for the days to come. The dawn of 2009 masehi and 1430 hijrah! And like the previous years, I can't wait what the next 12 months got to offer me. I hope I can find that miracle. I hope.

"setelah terjerat dalam dilema aku mengerti
bagaimana sukarnya mengenal diri sendiri
hanyutlah aku dalam arus hidup yang tak menentu
maka timbul kesedaran, yang aku selama ini.. KELIRU!.."

Chiao !!

Month Of Magic

August? Pergh, time moving so fast! I thought April was just over. Life was kinda hectic down here, enough to made me forgot about big things that had happened around me. I guess I need to revisit and updates my own blog more often.. ahaks! Anyway, lets recap whats happening around me for the past 4 months. Where should I begin huh..?

Okay, first thing first, lets give a big hand to my two new adorable nieces! --> Aleefa Nur Amani (1st pic) born on the 7th of July at SMC. And Adriana Nur Izzati (2nd pic) born on the 9th of July at Tawakkal Hospital <-- And lets extend the extra big hands to both my sis, Kaknik and Alonkk for their undoubted energy and effort. Congrat to them for delivering these comel face into this world and also to both my big bro in-law! I guess, lets not put a stop to this.. ehehe.. Hoping to see more pretty faces in these coming years! And lets extend our family tree exponentially to the stratosphere! Expecting another one in December this year.

Hmm.., I need to browse my phone to get some of their photos. Okay, lets post them here. There! Aleefa, lost in her own state of dreamland. And Adriana, cluelessly looking at me, while I am taking her pic. Wonder what is on her mind? If she can talk, she must have shout at me to stop taking her pic.. ehehe! Glad she can't! Whatever it is, 2008 is almost reaching its 3rd quarter. I bet mak and abah was the happiest parent in July. To get two adorable cucu(s) within a week is considered a miracle. A magic that happens only to a certain people. To a certain selected people. I bet, despite the additional running around (since both of my sis are crashing at kampung for the next two months), there is an enjoyable feeling inside them. The feeling that has long-gone. House that normally silent now seems to get frantic. To get excited. Congrat mak! Congrat abah!

Ramadhan is coming in less than 2 weeks! Lets get ready! Lets get prepared! The holy month is coming. Hmm.. my second ramadhan with CIMB. I guess, history is gonna be revisited. Buka puasa kat opis lagi ler. Takpe lah, should be grateful that atleast I have a safe place to break-fast. Thank God! for giving me another chance to meet ramadhan, Insya'Allah! To my brothers and sisters in Palestine, Iraq, Afganistan and wherever they are, where life seems to be so cruel to them, where the light of victory seems to be dim, be STRONG! be PATIENCE! What been promised is soon to be visible! May God be with you!

To all my frens, "SALAM RAMADHAN!". Chiao!

Reminisce Old Memories

8.54am. Here I am, and as usual, havin my breakfast. Hmm.. it's a fine and quiet mornin. In fact it is too quiet. Most of my peers has gone to ESSET, including the one and only ---> WCK! Attending our 1st Quarter Review. Judging from this quietness, I guess today is gonna be one of my longest day in life.

My never-ending work is stacking and piling up in my intray, but I have no "drive" to look at them. Sort of lost of my motivation. This place is killing me. And I am drifting. Away from ME. Like Hetfield wrote in one of his greatest songs.. "Life is seems will fade away, drifting further everyday, getting lost within myself and nuthin' matters no one else, I have lost the will to live, simply nuthin more to give, there is nuthin more for me, I need the end to set me free..". That was good isn't it..? The lyric. So deep. And thoughtful.

Life is routine around here. More routine everyday. I used to hate routine job. I always think it is uninteresting. Life is suppose to be interesting. Life is not suppose to be routine. I used to have an interesting life. What am I writing..? Confuse myself.. I guess I miss my old life. I used to relax and enjoy life more often. But in here?

Hairul called me last nite. It's been almost 6 years. It is a miracle. I always thought that he had lost in his own world. And I am in my own. Glad that he still got my number. Thank God, for still giving me this opportunity to be in touch with those who used to be my friends. My best friends! I miss them! Hmm.. I still remember their faces. Still remember we were walking to our class room, passing thru several football fields, talking and laughing, whistling our favorite songs, like a free man with no worries in the world. Then the exam weeks came, and we still have time to play cards, till 6.00 in the morning, then only start our revision at 8.00 am, knowing that the exam is only gonna start at 2.00 pm. We came to the exam hall with our "swollen and sleepy" eyes, and guess what..? I scored "A" for that paper <----> Microeconomics --> I still recall my excitement, when the results were out and sticked outside the exam hall (..months after). Thank God! For giving me a brain. And thank God! For giving me time and a little space in this planet to meet with this bunch of people. Bunch of interesting people, from different backgrounds, with different thoughts, with different agendas and with a different goals. But we managed to blend and we became friend. Best friend.

I miss that part of my life. Only memories left. To be refreshed and to be remembered.